Day 1

It's Day 1... again. And it's only the morning. And all I want is to go to church. Hahaha...

Man of Great Wisdom - Dr. Albert Schweitzer

"I listened, in my youth, to conversations between grown-up people through which there breathed a tone of sorrowful regret which oppressed the heart. The speakers looked back at the idealism and capacity for enthusiasm of their youth as something precious to which they ought to have held fast, and yet at the same time they regarded it as almost a law of nature that no one should be able to do so. This woke in me a dread of having ever, even once, to look back on my own past with such a feeling; I resolved never to let myself become subject to this tragic domination of mere reason, and what I thus vowed in almost boyish defiance I have tried to carry out."

~Memoirs of Childhood and Youth~

Well said.

I am so in awe of this wise man. I am determined to lay my hands on ALL his books!

Return of Youthful Idealism

Watched "Lions for Lamb" in church last saturday. It was a brilliant movie. The dialogue is just fantastic. I really applaud the scriptwriters. And thank God that there were subtitles, otherwise, really, I don't think I can catch half of what the show is about. The movie explored so many themes, both explicit and subtle, all beautifully intertwined together. The themes of governance and military propaganda, the deception of journalism, mentoring, fleeting youthfulness, politics of ethnic minorities, affirmative action, and what Pastor wanted us to focus on - the decline of idealism as we move into adulthood.

Idealism... Something I havent thought about in years. Looking back, I realised that the world was simpler and people were all nice. And all I wanted was for everyone to be nice to everyone. As a youth, I also grew closer to God. While in university, I spent time talking to God everyday. Everyday, I could hear the Holy Spirit. Sometimes, I even knew who was coming around the corner and who would walk into the room before the person actually arrives, cos I had to take some positive action as guided by Him. I was so joyful that it must have shown on my face, cos I had friends who asked me why was I so happy despite all the assignments. My world, then, was a fairytale in a bubble. I remembered that there were a few times, when doing my QT, I was just prompted to pray for myself that I would never backslide, that when things do bad, I must never let go of God. I prayed to God that He must never let me let Him go, no matter what. I am so thankful to God for those bubble years, where, retrospectively, He must been preparing me for what is to come.

The bubble burst when I went to work and when I went to this other church group. Things just happened and my idealism gave way to scepticism. Yes, I was sceptical. Although, my love for God grew cold at some point, I always remembered that prayer to never let God go no matter what. God is so good.

Last Saturday, I felt that God was telling me He was bringing idealism back to me, when He brought me into HOGC. Since I have experienced "realism" (whether imagined in my head or experienced in reality) in my adulthood, God is writing more faith into my life so that my mind will be renewed and will see things in the fourth dimension. Now, without the bubble, I am not naive, but with Jesus, I am not sceptical. I am living out an idealistic life in a realistic environment. I have hope in Jesus. All things are possible.

With God and HOGC, idealism has transformed my reality.

Father, etch idealism indelibly into my consciousness. May I never grow cold again.

Zipping around

The brother's back from Shanghai. So the car went back to him. Well... I thought that it would be easy going back to public transport... so I thought. The past 2 weeks... have been... well... not difficult, but not easy... after the 2-hour journey from Ubi to my parents' home in Bukit Panjang... I was so convicted about picking up driving... FAST. The very next day, I went down to BBDC to sign up for the Final Theory test... Got to do it. Got to drive. Got to buy time. So yes, we are getting or own car. Hahahah!!! and I have already gone for my first driving lesson, not too hard to drive an auto car. So God, please help me to save money and let me pass at the next test. 8 years ago, I took the manual car test... well, hit the ramp, drove like a tortoise and without confidence... of course, fail lah. Couldn't re-take, was paid too low then. Yups, civil service really robbed me of my deserved pay... (ok ok... humility, pls), Now, I can afford to learn, but really got to squeeze time.
I want to drive my own car.

I am Lamininated!

I am Lamininated! nope, no spelling error...

Just saw this video by Louie Giglio on a dear friend's blog... blew me away... 

watch it  >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_e4zgJXPpI4

Laminin, a vital protein in our body, essential in holding body structures together. It exists in all human bodies. When God formed us, He left His blueprint in all of us. In Him, all things hold together. 

I got a revelation of what it meant by "Christ in me", truly, in terms of body, soul and spirit. I know Jesus is in my spirit and I know Jesus saved my soul. I know Jesus lives in me... but now I know a little bit of how Jesus lives in me. Jesus holds me together. He is infused in physical being. He is infused in every part of me. I love knowing this. I love living this. I love my Jesus. I love my God. He is so awesome! Thank you Holy Spirit for opening my eyes to this. 

Louie also preached about how astronomy has shown God's blueprint in the creation of the universe. When the hubble telescope was aimed at the black hole, this was what they 

 saw >> 

WOW!! 

It says in Colossians 1:15 - 20

Christ is the visible image of the invisible God.

He existed before anything was created and is supreme over all creation, 

for through Him God created everything in the heavenly realms and on earth.

He made the things we can see and the things we can't see - such as thrones, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities in the unseen world.

Everything was created through Him and for Him. 

He existed before anything else, and He holds all creation together. 

Christ is also the head of the church, which is His body. 

He is the beginning, supreme over all who rise from the dead. 

So He is first in everything. 

For God in all His fullness was pleased to live in Christ,

and through Him God reconciled everything to Himself.

He made peace with everything in heaven and on earth

by means of Christ's blood on the cross. 

God is great. His wisdom and thoughts are way way way way way.... above ours. None can fathom. I believed that whatever we learnt about anything on earth are really just a teeny weeny bit of a "mustard seed" compared to I-don't-even-know-how-big-it-can-get thing of God. I just cannot imagine. I cannot comprehend. My brain will just burst. It is my honour and privilege to understand a glimpse of His Glory. 

;-)