Oscar award

Oscar award goes to me for being the best actress.
I am feeling wayyyyy.......... down.
But no one knows. No one sees.
I'll just pretend that I am ok.
Don't want to bring anyone down along with me.

Top on my mind is... we are unequally yoked. He is an amazing guy and leader. I am not there. May never be there.
Am I bringing him down? Am I a stopper to his growth and destiny?

I don't feel good.
I don't want to talk about it. I know what they'll say... "you are an awesome leader"
But at this point, I can't believe it.


... ... ...


Satan, get behind me. In Jesus' name.