Need to self medicate

On leave today. Feel horrible. Feel like the world's worst church leader and the world's worst person. Feel like a loser. Feel that the world will do better without me. Feel that I would be better off not existing.

But I know. I can't live like this. I need to self medicate. I am sick. I need to pray. I need my God. So I shall pray.

so Devil, buzz off. Quit screwing my mind. I belong to my Jesus.