On the verge

I might just give up.
I have no substance anyway...

unhappy

Can I have time to myself?

please?

Oscar award

Oscar award goes to me for being the best actress.
I am feeling wayyyyy.......... down.
But no one knows. No one sees.
I'll just pretend that I am ok.
Don't want to bring anyone down along with me.

Top on my mind is... we are unequally yoked. He is an amazing guy and leader. I am not there. May never be there.
Am I bringing him down? Am I a stopper to his growth and destiny?

I don't feel good.
I don't want to talk about it. I know what they'll say... "you are an awesome leader"
But at this point, I can't believe it.


... ... ...


Satan, get behind me. In Jesus' name.

Consequences Consciousness

I was about to blog about the crazy thing that came into my mind just now, while waiting for the traffic light... what happens if I just get knocked down and died? ...then as I logged into my blog (which I thought no one actually reads, so that I can vomit out the things inside of me freely), i saw a comment on my previous emo entry from "blessedone"... then I became aware of the things that I blogged about can have consequences... I can either bless and edify someone, or bring someone down with me...

To those who actually read my crazy thoughts, I usually blog when I am emo. Emo is not right. Don't ever let me drag you down.

When I am down, I need an outlet. This is my outlet. I grew up writing a diary. that's where I release the tensions inside of me.

And when I am down, I seek God. This, you may follow.
Just don't follow my craziness.