Need to self medicate
On leave today. Feel horrible. Feel like the world's worst church leader and the world's worst person. Feel like a loser. Feel that the world will do better without me. Feel that I would be better off not existing.
Eclectic array of thoughts in my consciousness... all submited to my Yehshua, my God.
On leave today. Feel horrible. Feel like the world's worst church leader and the world's worst person. Feel like a loser. Feel that the world will do better without me. Feel that I would be better off not existing.
Oscar award goes to me for being the best actress.
I was about to blog about the crazy thing that came into my mind just now, while waiting for the traffic light... what happens if I just get knocked down and died? ...then as I logged into my blog (which I thought no one actually reads, so that I can vomit out the things inside of me freely), i saw a comment on my previous emo entry from "blessedone"... then I became aware of the things that I blogged about can have consequences... I can either bless and edify someone, or bring someone down with me...
Valleys Valleys...
Maybe I am just not pastoral enough. Maybe I am not cut out to be a church leader.
What is it about Singaporeans starting a new job or starting out at work, that makes it sooooooo hard? worse. Christians who drop God and church cos they can't cope at work.