What's your vision, my child?

I really don't know... God. It is somewhat vague and blurred.

Yesterday, Pastor Lia preached about the all-elusive Vision. Elusive to me because mine's vague, obscure, intangible and indefinable. Nonetheless, there is no denying that vision is important and powerful. Without vision, one is rendered almost ineffectual, almost useless, dead. There would be no purpose to live then.

But not for me. I can't be visionless. That is not reflective of my God. My God is a God of visions.

It's my own fault and laziness that got me into this stage. I should have written stuff down as and when I felt that I had a burden.

Birth of a vision begins with a burden. What are you burdened for? What am I burdened for?

Let's start with what I detest, maybe that would help.
1) Injustice
2) Bullying
3) Betrayal
4) Inferiority complex
5) Self-righteousness
6) Lowly sadistic people who RELISH in discouraging people.
and more ... ...

What I admire:
1) Strength
2) Uncompromising
3) Joy
4) Faith
5) Security in God
6) Lavishing praises on others
7) Protecting the weak... I wish I had superpowers so that I can zap bullies.
8) Oprah Winfrey... yes, I love her work. I admit it.
and more ...

I know... I already knew in my heart. My burden has always been for people with low self-esteem. I was there once. I am still managing it. My real dream is to get people's self esteem up by showing them that they can be secured in God. That God loves us no matter how lowly we think of ourselves. That we do not have to do, we only have to be. Be His child. His beloved child.

And and ... I love to lavish praises on people. I learned to do that by watching my church leaders. Find all the praise-worthy things about people, and tell them. I love to encourage people, esp the down and out.

And and ... I have a tendency, an inclination to want to fight against injustice. I hate bullies. If not for God's wisdom and timely interception, I would have gotten into trouble shooting my mouth off because of this tendency.

And and ... I want to build my church. It is my privilege to serve. And it is my privilege to give.

But now comes translating all that into an action plan. What exactly is that? hmm... Can I let God decide?

Despite my career in the private banking arena, I know, deep down, that I still want to be an image consultant. But that has to wait.

But I will be a leader.